Thanks giving, Week 35

Graduate school is now, almost, begun.  I spent Wednesday and Thursday of this week at TA (teaching assistant) orientation and all day Friday at graduate school orientation.  I've met a lot of new people, many of whom will be my classmates and, some of them I hope, my friends, over the next few years.  I'm nervous about starting this program.  Each new endeavor like this brings up fears of failure, and there's a realization that this may be something that while I'm capable of (or not), I just can't balance with my desires for motherhood and a family life.  I'm hoping that, with help from Wes and outside caregivers, I can find that balance, but I also know what my decision would be if I couldn't.  It's a scary thing, to risk failure at something.  We all do it every day in small ways, but I recognize it more here because it's a big thing -- five years of my life and a financial investment by the university.  I'm hoping it goes well, and regardless, I'm thankful for the chance to succeed.